In this quarter life crisis, I think I lose my self. My self that always cheerful and a bit rebel. LOL. I know this situation is not eternal, time will change. I will transform to better person. I believe it.

I respect the process. These ups and downs, that turmoil, and this episodic chaos in my head. It consumes energy, indeed, caused many unimportant overthinks --although I know this hard time shall pass.

Many beginner adult like me on their crisis. They can be lost like me, I supposed. And it could lead to another dangerous action such as suicidal. But I won't do that. I still want to live the life. What I need is write and write and write. Just writing to expel every bad thinking inside my head. I know this is kind of therapy to me. And I'll do that.

Speaking of lost, sometime it makes us to miss things. On this moment, I suppose I miss me. The old me.

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I even can't describe how me in the past, at least in last five years ago. But writing can be such helpful.

Suddenly I open the folder on my laptop titled "Dear Diary". Shockingly after I opened the folder, I wrote many writings. I can't even remember how could I be consistent write daily.

I even wrote plenty writings, and sort it by month. I should admire myself more after I read those writings.

It can be fun to know how I wrote based on my feeling in the past. How alay me. Haha! But I know that I'm growing, I'm developing myself.

This one should ensure this body and mind to relax, to chill. Just believe to this mantra "hard time shall pass."